who would have know that my demise
would be attributed to your soul in disguise
I truly feel clowned and now I feel down
affection turned to affliction
you once showed feelings with conviction
then suddenly like the flick of a switch, protection
you decided early anyways, that you'd be on to the next one
next time i'll move with tact and calculation
b/c I don't ever wanna feel again, what i'm facin
sleepless nights, thinking about fights we never had
me sayin my bad, over mistakes I never made
this shit they call love, well sometimes it seems to fade
I don't wanna turn cold but, as you get old sometimes you get numb
feeling mad at yourself for all the dumb shit that you done
close my eyes, drink some wine, in the morning or someday I hope to have a surprise
knock knock, who's there? it's wise? wise who? wise wisdom, I'm coming from the kingdom of god
be strong my lad, learn from your mistakes, b/c believe or not sometimes love and life give you breaks..
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
toxic love
he saw her in the distance
she approached and felt nervous
he built up the confidence with a little liquid courage
without even thinking of the consequences, he approached her anyways
love at first sight.. or infatuation? one or the other it didn't matter
he was wiling to take the risk
next thing you know it's "anything you want baby girl, anything you need"
the decision was made and the love already tainted
after all they hit it off on the first night
they also hit it on the first night
but there was no "quit it"
it was, "let's move on"
months pass, things get sweeter
a month passes and then suddenly bitter
what happened?
from affection to protection of feelings
he was closed off from the whole world
like the flick of a switch
oh right, love involves risk. maybe too much sometimes?
if only he were objective and not rushed
now he feels the pain and has a sour taste left in his mouth
is love always this tough or disappointing, or both?
everyone else seems to may it work
but him...
what is he doing wrong?
he wants to follow the right path but, he can't see it. does it exist?
he walks down what looks like a path anyways in hope that eventually the sun will come up..
that's it! the sun WILL come up...
she approached and felt nervous
he built up the confidence with a little liquid courage
without even thinking of the consequences, he approached her anyways
love at first sight.. or infatuation? one or the other it didn't matter
he was wiling to take the risk
next thing you know it's "anything you want baby girl, anything you need"
the decision was made and the love already tainted
after all they hit it off on the first night
they also hit it on the first night
but there was no "quit it"
it was, "let's move on"
months pass, things get sweeter
a month passes and then suddenly bitter
what happened?
from affection to protection of feelings
he was closed off from the whole world
like the flick of a switch
oh right, love involves risk. maybe too much sometimes?
if only he were objective and not rushed
now he feels the pain and has a sour taste left in his mouth
is love always this tough or disappointing, or both?
everyone else seems to may it work
but him...
what is he doing wrong?
he wants to follow the right path but, he can't see it. does it exist?
he walks down what looks like a path anyways in hope that eventually the sun will come up..
that's it! the sun WILL come up...
Monday, November 1, 2010
he fought and he fought
a born fighter
nothing could take him down
not even life and its curve balls
a sugar cane farmer
not as sweet as most think
everyone else enjoyed the sweet taste
but him
he continued on anyways
the vision was his
there was no giving it up
like a mountain in the distance
that seems so close
he decided to walk
and walk
and run
why does it seem so far still?
he came too far anyways
so he continued
only to eventually realize that the beauty of the mountain
was best enjoyed from a distance anyways
he wanted to see both views
it felt better at the top anyways
so most say
he isn't there yet
so he continues to fight
will he get to the top?
if he does will it be too late?
I hope he enjoyed the journey
the reward is at the top
keep fighting
after all you are fighter
after all, it is all we know
it is all you know, warrior
nothing could take him down
not even life and its curve balls
a sugar cane farmer
not as sweet as most think
everyone else enjoyed the sweet taste
but him
he continued on anyways
the vision was his
there was no giving it up
like a mountain in the distance
that seems so close
he decided to walk
and walk
and run
why does it seem so far still?
he came too far anyways
so he continued
only to eventually realize that the beauty of the mountain
was best enjoyed from a distance anyways
he wanted to see both views
it felt better at the top anyways
so most say
he isn't there yet
so he continues to fight
will he get to the top?
if he does will it be too late?
I hope he enjoyed the journey
the reward is at the top
keep fighting
after all you are fighter
after all, it is all we know
it is all you know, warrior
eyes that turned to ice
happy, young and joyful
what an incredible feeling
innocence is so beautiful
corruption is tricky
it taints you and us
my eyes were soft like a peach
and then suddenly..
as hard as stones
like my nerves
starting to feel numb
I fight for warmth
where is it?
the sun is out but, it's cold outside
I start to run
I feel warm
but, not warm enough
heat = love
but, I feel cold
then hot
and cold again
what a vicious cycle
my eyes hurt
they turn to steel
my body burns inside with rage
I try turn down the furnace inside my body but
I cant
suddenly the soft peach becomes hard
how can i reverse this cycle?
what an incredible feeling
innocence is so beautiful
corruption is tricky
it taints you and us
my eyes were soft like a peach
and then suddenly..
as hard as stones
like my nerves
starting to feel numb
I fight for warmth
where is it?
the sun is out but, it's cold outside
I start to run
I feel warm
but, not warm enough
heat = love
but, I feel cold
then hot
and cold again
what a vicious cycle
my eyes hurt
they turn to steel
my body burns inside with rage
I try turn down the furnace inside my body but
I cant
suddenly the soft peach becomes hard
how can i reverse this cycle?
Life Happened
Life Happened and then
it didn't
Like an engine that once ran but, was eventually too tired of the road
the hard starts, cold weather and the aggressive driving of its owner
it was too much
the doctor said it couldn't be repaired but, that a broken heart could
so I took it to another doctor and he said its heart and mind are broken
defeated by life
what to do?
all we can do is rebuild and repair
like a classic vintage mercedes
everything can be restored
even life
even love
even our spirits
and our minds
it didn't
Like an engine that once ran but, was eventually too tired of the road
the hard starts, cold weather and the aggressive driving of its owner
it was too much
the doctor said it couldn't be repaired but, that a broken heart could
so I took it to another doctor and he said its heart and mind are broken
defeated by life
what to do?
all we can do is rebuild and repair
like a classic vintage mercedes
everything can be restored
even life
even love
even our spirits
and our minds
the title says it all doesn't it
pani puri and hot kuris and a whole lot of stuff in between. why the title, "pani puri and hot kuris"? Well for one, I thought it was kind of funny and then coincidentally it sort of reminded me of my life in some ways. I love food and I love women (not in the chauvinistic degrading sense but, in wow they are beautiful way), and everything else that is related to enjoying life.
More intelligent posts to come...
More intelligent posts to come...
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